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The Little Meghan That Could

I've been doing Weight Watchers since last August. Okay wait, truth be told, I've been doing it - on and off - since August 1999. Way back then, I set a goal to lose 63.8 pounds.

Everyone gasps when they hear that - as if I set out to become a hollow-cheeked freak. Hardly. The thing is, I was overweight. If you don't believe me, check this out.

Granted, that photo is not from 1999, it's probably from around 1996 - but I'm pretty sure that I looked darn near that bad in 1999. And if you feel like telling me that I looked fine, that I should have just learned to love myself the way I was, take that speech somewhere else. I looked awful. I looked uncomfortable. I was uncomfortable. I had shitty self-esteem, I ate too much, and it showed.

I'm all for loving yourself the way you are, but I'm also all for being healthy. And, when I joined WW in August 1999, I was not healthy. My BMI was 33.5. Do you know what that means? That means I was clinically obese.

When people talk about the fact that over 60% of Americans are obese, I think we all picture some big fatty trapped in bed with a box full of donuts and a bucket of chicken, waiting for the crane to come pull him out in time for his Jerry Springer appearance. The truth is, far more of us are obese than we probably realize.

Why am I saying all of this? Have patience, I have a point and I'll be getting to it shortly.

When I joined WW in 1999, I had a goal to lose 63.8 pounds. After a year, I had lost about 43, and then I lost steam. I went back to the real world and, over three years, gained back about 15 pounds. Not great, but also not terrible. I had learned a lot of good habits in WW, and I was learning how to live those habits outside of the confines of the program. It was a break I needed to take. Kind of like the break I took between high school and college: riddled with bad decisions, but overall a good learning experience that has made me the person I am today.

This past August, I was ready to finish the job. Since then, I've lost 25 pounds - the 15 I gained back, plus 10 more. I'm still not at my goal; I have about 10 more pounds to go before I weigh what my driver's license has said for 12 years. But this morning, as I was recording my weight in the spreadsheet I built to track my progress (because of course I have a spreadsheet that calculates my total loss and average per week, yo!), I decided that I should re-check my BMI, and see how I was doing against the ole' weight/height chart.

For the first time since god-knows-when, my BMI is 25 and I'm actually on the chart. I have officially entered the good section of the height/weight chart! Do you know what that means? That means I'm healthy. So, this is me now. (And hey - that photo is from 3 weeks ago...I'm 3 pounds lighter since then!)

I have no idea what the point of this is, except that maybe it means that change is possible. That what you are now isn't what you always have to be. Not to get all inspirational up in here, but it reminds me of one of my favorite sayings, from a poster I downloaded a few years ago from unamerican.com, "Don't forget your potential to transform your life into something that inspires other people into action."

So, thanks to everyone who has been so supportive of me, from 1999 until now. I'm so close to my goal, I can taste it. (And yes, it tastes like dessert.)

Posted April 7, 2004 10:58 PM | On This Day: 2002

 

8 Comments

You look wonderful...

Not only am I proud of you, but relieved to know that I'm not the only one who has a spreadsheet of this nature. I always thought became friends because we found common ground in our laughs, but it turns out it was an underlying love of spreadsheets.

Yay Meggie! :-)

Irish Girl, you rock! Your will power is devastating, your focus unsurpassed, and your desire to succeed will take you anywhere you want to go. I am always in awe.

"Transformation" was the theme for this year's Plenary Awards (which my wife was selected to present at!) at the University of Bridgeport. The ceremony was yesterday and I proudly dashed out of work to attend. But I say that to say this, you look fabulous but more importantly it sounds as though FEEL fabulous! Fantastic. You keep at it, one day at a time. The journey, as you know, is equally as valuable as the success of reaching the goal. Congrats!

Just want to acknowledge that this is a great accomplishment, and one I struggle with, so I know that while it might be simple, it surely isn't easy. I salute you, I admire you, I encourage you to hold the line.

You are my sunshine. I feel so inspired by you. Congratulations, Meg. You are a champion. And a hottie, too.

I am your biggest fan.