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I hate Tuesdays when they're

I hate Tuesdays when they're like Mondays because of a three-day weekend.

First, I am a complete jerk. I was supposed to pick up Becca at the airport and I totally forgot PLUS I left my cell phone at home this morning so she couldn't get in touch with me to remind me. Second, Jerry invited me to the Black Forest tonight and I didn't want to go because I was tired and I just spent the whole weekend with the tribe, but I went because I had to get my purse from this weekend. I show up and Susan has this giant bag and I say (jokingly), "What is this, a party? Was I supposed to bring something?" They laugh. I think I'm funny.

Fifteen minutes later, I remember: today is Juggy's 31st birthday. *bonk* What a wanker. Then Becca shows up (she finally called Austin and he went to pick her up) and I'm a double wanker.

All of these things simply serve as an exclamation point on today's mantra: I am a wanker! It's frosting on my wanker cake.

Just today I was thinking about how weird it is that my life feels like it's falling apart: my apartment is always messy, I'm late for work, I forget things (purse in Duluth, cell phone in apartment, friend at airport, other friend's birthday), I feel sort of sluggish and dissatisfied. Plus, I need to lose 34 pounds. For those of you who think I'm exaggerating, let me just say that I am not. I've managed to keep off the 30 that I lost two years ago and now it's time to finish the job.

But, I digress. My point is that two years ago at this time I was working full time, going to school nearly full time, and doing a million other things. I was a well-oiled machine, I was on time, I was on the ball. I used to wake up and go work out at the gym at 6:00 in the morning. Lately, I'm lucky if I'm at work at 9:00am and that's with a big cup of coffee in hand and a sleepy look in my eye.

What is happening? What is the deal with that? This is part of the reason that I need to move: I am becoming lazy of mind and body and I need a change. I need to be free to be you and me. Or something.

Posted September 3, 2002 11:57 PM | On This Day: 2003



Wank, wank wank! Happy birthday Juggy! (a day late) Our birthdays are only a day and some odd years appart.

I've been taking fish oil for my cardiac health and ginseng for my energy level. I am not feeling more energetic. or more cariovascular. but I am less of a tool than you.

i gotta lot of problems too. you should write a haiku and email it to me. that might get you going in the right direction.

Who's Juggy anyway? If Juggy is a girl, I'd like to know her. And get a few pictures.

What a difference 24 hrs makes.

kohout: juggy and jerry are the same person. but if you want photos...

kohout:p.s. on your site you said that aragorn dies in fellowship of the ring. aragorn doesn't die, yo. he's my boyfriend.